WHAT A F&^KING LOAD OF CRAP!!!!!

My sisters are irritating. They think just because I am not in the same ride with them to "la-la-land" I do not have the right to say my piece. Just because I haven't experienced it doesn't mean I can't have an opinion. Screw free speech then! Apparently they are not liking my role as "devil's advocate" because they want to continue to live in their dreamland that all is well in their relationships. Well, reality is, in relationships, they are not always well. And you know what it is fine. There is no perfect relationship!

Just because I do not think the way they do it doesn't mean I do not support them. It doesn't mean I am not happy for them that they are happy. But when is saying something, just because its something they do not want to hear or listen to becomes wrong? I am not saying I am right either because I am not sure if I am but whether if its wrong or right, I should be able to say it. They are called OPINIONS. I read somewhere that "opinions are like a$$holes, everyone got one." Other people's opinions are just a way for people to see the other side. According to Claire, it's just a way for someone to get a different perspective, that not everything is what it seems. That is the point I am driving at. But apparently I am not being supportive. I am being a villain. And who says that just because I have not experienced being in one, erases my right to be able to say something... anything. They feel I am being an intrusion when I say things that they may not want to hear but isn't telling me how to live my life, how to make decisions about my life the same as intrusion? Why is it that when the direction of the words are from eldest to younger siblings, its an intrusion but the very same thing the other way around isn't? Damn those double standards and I thought it is only an issue between men and women, apparently not.

It doesn't mean just because I said it that they have to take it. They can take it or leave it for all I care but it shouldn't stop me from being able to say what I want to say, what I have to say. They are thinking individuals. They are free to make decisions that will be good for them, that is suitable for them but it doesn't make my opinions of any less importance. Apparently I am not allowed to have MY opinions!

I cannot believe how twisted people's minds can be. How is it possible that the same situation and offense be okay with one and not okay in the other? How is it possible that the very same thing that is being done to you now, you were once guilty of and yet you let it slide when it was done to you but not when you were the one doing it? What makes it different? How can you let someone off the hook because supposedly you don't know the whole story and yet when it was pertaining to people who are blood relatives, you chose to believe whatever because it feasts on your ego. Isn't it karma now that the very same thing that you did to your blood relatives is being done to you now by a stranger or by a friend that you thought had your back and yet you don't seem to see the lesson behind it. How can you easily forgive strangers and yet hold on to age old grudges when it comes to blood relatives? Why did you cut the stranger some slack and yet you cant do the same thing to your own flesh and blood? The reason why you want to let it slide is so that the other person would stop from telling people stories but how come that never stopped you? It never stopped you when it was your OWN family's dirty laundry that you were waving in public. Doesn't that come back to you as well? What makes it different now? Supposedly in your mind you didn't do anything to deserve such a treatment from this so called friend but apparently your siblings did or do. Life is telling you something now but it seems that you are still blind and deaf. Doesn't "do not do unto others what you dont want others to do unto you" ring a bell?